
Steve Simmons in rural Merced, California, checking a nest in 2010
For Dr. Steve Simmons
Sept. 14, 1941–June 1, 2020

Daughter Deanne helps her dad
You have been trying to depart for days,
propped up in a strange bed in the living room
that no longer looks like home, except for
loved ones, both two- and four-footed,
who wander in and out—
as you do, trying to find breath, release,
as images swarm behind your closed eyes
like bees leaving the hive or birds departing
their boxed nests, the ones you tended
for decades, hauling the gangly ladder
through pastures, propping it next to tall poles,
climbing up, peering into your handmade artificial
nests, counting, retrieving, banding young ones,
making notes, moving on to the next.

Dr. Steve bands a kestrel fledge, 2008
And now, on final approach to the great liftoff,
you cannot summon the strength to shake out
damp appendages, flap hard and ascend,
though, like the nestlings, you try.
Haven’t you been growing wings all along?
Hasn’t this lifetime with feathered beings
prepared you for flight?
You have no thought when it happens:
In the right moment, your chest bursts open
to a heartbeat of flapping feathers,
a wood duck readying for exodus.
Now all you must do is rise, glide, soar,
wing your way into what comes next,
focusing only on the clear blue of up.

Releasing a kestrel, 2010 (Photos by Dick Schmidt)
Heartfelt thanks!
So sorry for your loss, Connie, as well as Marge’s and Deanne’s and Peter’s, of course. What a time they have had… and you, too, good sister-in-law. Sending you much love and peace.
Lovely poem of release, Jan.
Thanks so much, Janet.
Jan,
This is beautiful.
Thank you so much! I’ve just added a few more photos from Dr. Steve’s bird banding days.
Thanks for this, Jan. It is so well done, heartfelt and wonderful! Hugs, Cora