Butterfly

Now there is no going in or going out.
Now there is just here, the final here.

Now there is where she hasn’t wanted
to go. Where a week ago, traveling between

here and gone, pairs of unfamiliar eyes
and the face of a cat danced before hers.

Scary, she said then, through wet butterfly
lashes, seeking reassurance from us as

we used to seek hers when, as children in
this house, we’d awaken scared in the night,

pad down the hall to their room where we
would whisper over her sleeping form,

I had a bad dream. She’d murmur,
It’s just a dream. Go back to sleep.

We would stand, trembling, not wanting
to return to the slender bed alone,

though we did, for a moment,
to retrieve pillow and blanket

to bed down on the floor next to her.
Tonight as she sleeps in the family room,

still breathing but not awakening,
we will sleep in the same room with her.

We hold her hand, saying what we wanted
to hear: It’s OK. You’re safe. We love you.

Fly now, butterfly. You can go.
Fly on home.

Blue morpho butterfly, Victoria, British Columbia / Photo: Dick Schmidt

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2 Responses to Butterfly

  1. mangooptimistic9ea70dca21's avatar mangooptimistic9ea70dca21 says:

    I love this. I love the honesty, the vulnerability, the compassion and the truth of it and seeing those girls, as women, giving what they wished they had.

    Tx J.

    Transformational Coach, ICF ACC Certified Deep Coaching Practitioner Affiliate Amherst Writers and Artists Writing Group Leader Wildasswriters http://www.janetjohnstoncoaching.com

  2. janishaag's avatar janishaag says:

    Thank you, dear Jan… I so appreciate your kind words and your presence, ever with me!

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