Dear Santa, a form letter

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What I want for Christmas:

(Check all boxes that apply, even if you’re Jewish, or you stopped believing years ago;
use exclamation points for things that warrant them)

√ Happiness                √ Hired help                        •Success

√ Wisdom                   √ Health                                •Puppy

[ewww!] Fruitcake    • Wealth                                ! Superb regift

• Garden gnome         ! Freedom from guilt        √ No regrets

• Self acceptance       • Wad of cash                     •Personal growth

! Perspective               ! Parking karma                • Brand new car

! A clue                          ! Therapy  (massage)       • One of everything

And don’t forget:

Not to slight you, Santa, but I don’t see “a visit from a companion spirit” on the form, which is what I really want. (Three !!! for that one.) Oh, I know they’re around. I often feel him riding shotgun or hear the little redheaded one in my head cheering me on. But my father doesn’t make himself known, and I never see any of them. Is that because becoming embodied after the bodies are gone is just too difficult, or is it simply unnecessary?

Here’s what I want, Santa:

My angels dancing, not on the head of a pin, but out in the yard where I can see them. They beckon to me as the last of the crunchy sycamore leaves decorates the greening lawn. And I hear their music, not heavenly chorales, but a bouncy bopping tune that even I, the klutz with two left feet, can follow as I make my way to them, to him, the tall, bearded one who married me 33 years ago today, on a cold, clear morning just like this one, my hands as icy then as now. On the right one I wear a ring inscribed with his name, and he takes my chilly hands in his, warming them instantly, and we dance and dance and dance.

Thank you,

Jan

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Cliff Polland and Jan Haag, December 17, 1983

 

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3 Responses to Dear Santa, a form letter

  1. Carolburnett says:

    Jan,

    What a lovely tribute to Cliff. Your writing is beautiful.

    Carol

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  2. Team Haag says:

    Lovely, Jan!!!!

    > Laura Martin > email: lauramartinwrites@sbcglobal.net > phone: 916.718.3296 > > “Every cloud has a C=9 M=3 Y=0 K=48 lining.”

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  3. Ursula Stuter says:

    ❤ "and he takes my chilly hands in his, warming them instantly, and we dance and dance and dance." ❤

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